Floundering

Lately I have been feeling a bit lost. In some kind of purgatory or like a fish on the dock just flopping around. I am not quite sure what to do about it. I come into my art room at night and do a whole lot of nothing, really. I can't tell you what I've done in there- maybe daydreaming, staring off into space, playing silly little games on the computer. Who says I have to do anything- right? Well, I guess I do. It's not like I don't do anything at all during the day with a 4 year old and almost 3 year old- I am very busy raising happy, well adjusted, self-confident, smart little girls. At night I just want more! More for me- but I just can't seem to do it lately. I haven't blogged and I haven't completed any creations. I think that maybe just like a flower- I can't be in bloom all the time. There has to be a period of rest so that I can build my energy up to bloom again. With this thought in mind I am going to stay away from the art room for about a week. Do some different things. Do somethings around the house that have been neglected. Lay down in my bed after the girls go to sleep and just do nothing. Allow my mind to wander and not fight it! I think this period of "Rest" will be good for me.
I shouldn't put that pressure on myself to be in constant bloom! It is impossible in nature so why should I force it on myself. Time to rest, gather my energies so that I may bloom once again- later- with full strength!

Until next time folks!

Feels like things are finally paying off!

After months of complaining to myself and to anybody who will listen to me whine about how little time I have to get things accomplished- I finally feel as if things are starting to come together!. It is such a great feeling. My story is not unique, it belongs to all of us. Whether you are a SAHM, a working mom, a working woman- no matter what your situation in life I think we always have that sense that we don't have enough time to do the things we want to do. I have just continued to take baby steps towards my mini goals and am beginning to see it all come together. All these night that I feel as if I am getting nothing accomplished- But I am! I guess I want that instant gratification- I want it done and I want it done now!!! WHHAAAA!!!

Well, that's just not the way the world works and as much as I may want it now I am glad it doesn't work that way. What a great feeling when all of the baby steps start to add up and I look back and say "wow" I have come this far! Wooty Woot!!! My Art room is finally coming together, I am being more consistent on blogging and I am almost ready to open my Art Fire shop. I have been working on redesigning my blog page, with alot of help and pointers from Pixie Polly. She has a great blog that I love to read everyday and has been so kind to offer me help when I need it! Thanks so much Polly! In closing, I will work on enjoying the baby steps more because they do count! I will also stop being so hard on myself about trying to get everything done now! Tee Hee.

My new art table with the fab lamp my girlfriend gave me!

The art table I am getting in order.